It’s Monday morning and I’m grumpy and frustrated, for a variety of reasons, and none really that significant. In other words, it’s a total stereotype of a Monday morning.
It’s gray and rainy outside.
The girls were tired and slow to get up and get moving, which inevitably leads to sniping.
Artemis I was supposed to launch this morning but scrubbed, and even though I figured the chances were 50/50 at best, it’s still disappointing.
And I’m frustrated with a thread tension issue that affected half of my latest quilt. This was designed to be a show quilt, and the issue is major enough that the quilt won’t be judged well, but minor enough that I didn’t notice until the quilt was blocked, trimmed, and I was starting to put on the binding. GAH.
Honestly it’s the quilt that is bothering me the most. This is the first new quilt I’ve made in 2022, after being mired in a creative slump all year, and I’m just so frustrated that I continue to have intermittent issues with my longarm despite 2 years of practice.
I’m frustrated that I can’t tell if it’s an issue with the machine or user error on my part.
I’m frustrated that this was meant to be a show quilt, and if I want to make it right I’m going to have to spend many more hours ripping out stitches and redoing them.
I’m frustrated that after more than a decade I still feel like an amateur, and don’t know who or what I want to be in the quilting world.
(Am I catastrophizing? Umm….yes.)
In any case, this quilt is headed for time out until I calm down and decide how I want to proceed.
BAH.
My heart goes out to you and I’m in the same space quilting-wise. Just feeling kind of adrift and like I don’t have a strong voice. For what it’s worth, I admire you and the voice I see in your quilting and think you’re an excellent quilter, mother, engineer, and all the other roles you fill every day.
I love this quilt.
A time out seems like a really good idea. I’m so sorry for your frustrations; they can all pile up at once, can’t they? I was *so* grumpy yesterday (so many small things compounding), and then I ended up being short with some new neighbors, and now I’m stuck in my head about what I said. Ugh! I should have put myself in a time out. The only saving grace on seam / quilting ripping with bad tension is that often it goes pretty quickly if the tension is off, should you decided to remove the quilting.
Hang in there, Sarah…
Sending good thoughts your way.