This year I’m participating in Ali Edwards’ One Little Word workshop. My word is “clear.” All of my OLW posts are here.
This month was all about some self-reflection and checking in on how the year has been so far. For me, this means admitting that the last 6 months haven’t been so great in the one little word department. Despite adjusting to life with two kids much better than I anticipated, and settling into work as well as can be expected when our branch is short 3 people…well, I’ve been feeling a little bit rudderless.
One items asks about companion words, and honestly, the word that popped into my head when I was writing my reflections was “rut.” I feel like I am in one big work/parenting/life rut. When I’m feeling truly clear, things are great. This is part of why I chose “clear” as my word for the year — because I wanted to figure out ways to capture that big feeling in everyday life.
But I haven’t been feeling so clear lately. Last year was so big — new baby, new job — that this year feels a little empty in comparison. I don’t really feel the way I want to feel.
I know — oh, I KNOW — that this is a ridiculous thing to be saying, but the feeling is there nonetheless. Every year won’t be big, it CAN’T be big, and that’s ok. But the transition back to a “normal” pace has left me feeling a little lost, I guess?
It’s tough to put the feeling into words, but that comes close, I think.
And now it’s up to me to shake it off…