Our boss here in Descent-land left six weeks ago to move to the ascent world (i.e. one door down the hall). We’ve been rotating the job of “Acting Group Lead” ever since, and my stint started yesterday. While it is cool to be able to interview potential new hires and help determine the direction of our group in the future, I have sat through at least 7 hours of meetings in the past 2 days and spent 20 minutes putting together slides at 1:00 a.m. when I was already in a state of emotional distress caused by a guy whose name starts with POO. So in summary: this whole Group Lead thing is really crazy and rather stressful, even if it is fun to keep telling George that he’s fired.
I am feeling incredibly depressed today. Evidence:
First, the game yesterday. Obviously. I know it is “just a game,” but really, it’s not.
Second, I got yanked around this afternoon by our travel system when someone in upper management accidentally signed my supposed-to-have-been-cancelled travel orders to go to Nice, France next week for a conference. I can’t go because they don’t have the money, but for a half hour I thought they’d had a change of heart. Turns out someone just wasn’t paying attention. SUCK.
Third, I am exhausted. I should really run tonight, but I am exhausted. I may just go to bed early.
Fourth, I can’t stop sneezing. I have been sniffly and sore-throated on and off since last week. It has been a bad week for my health, with the only exception being the 10K on Sunday. I had all these weird bites and itchiness. Then sniffles. Sore throat. Horrible eating habits for three days when all I basically had was ballpark food. Sneezing. And now just a general feeling of fuzziness and exhaustion.
Fifth, this group lead thing. I really do enjoy it, but I was not expecting it to be so hectic. Actually, I wouldn’t even mind that if I weren’t so tired. So I guess the group lead thing is not really a reason I’m depressed. Just why I’m stressed.
Sixth, I don’t know. I’m sure it’s just a combo of the first four. I’ve just had a mega downer of a day today. Hopefully tomorrow will be better!
I wouldn’t say any of this to you, except that I know you already know all of it. Everyday is a great day. They come in limited supply and you have no idea how many are given to you. Everyday we are privileged to interact with marvelous intellects of other people and see amazing beauty all around us: flowers, dogs, clouds, faces. Disappointments happen when we aren’t good at adjusting our expectations to what is really happening around us. A pioneer spirit, looking at each day as an adventure, without a specific agenda, helps me enjoy the day no matter what comes my way. And you, Sara, are a totally lovely person, with an amazing mind, and the world is definitely your oyster. It’s cool if your team wins, but I’ve found it’s also cool if my team plays. Bonus if Chipper hits the ball, but I just want to see him swing.
I just want to see Albert swing … and miss! Go Astros!