Jen mentioned on our way to lunch that she needs something like in Harry Potter, that you can touch to your head and all your conflicted, confused, muddled thoughts can just be put away for a little while.
I need one too.
I feel like I’m being squeezed between, pardon the cliche, a rock and a hard place. On one hand is what I want if it were as simple as just knowing what I want. On the other hand is what I want, but churned around with issues of who I have to compete with, what that means for those above me, and what that means for my work now and any potential work in the future.
The only thing I know how to do is just nervously, uncomfortably press on with what I want. Leave the politics up to the powers that be. And see what happens.
On top of that, I’m stressing about work, about possible work, and about my weekend. My schedule is too hectic: bike clinic, dinner, and St. Patty’s party tonight; race photography, soccer game, and rodeo tomorrow; marathon relay, race photography, seeing the play that my friends are in, soccer game, and fantasy baseball draft on Sunday. And Becca loaned me a book that is engrossing enough to keep me up too late at night reading.
If something were to give, it’d be skipping the party tonight and not playing fantasy baseball this season.
I don’t have a free weekend until late April and it makes me feel like I’m back in college.
