i had this dream last night that one of my close friends married another friend, and while i was happy for them, i was also sort of broken-hearted. and not for what should be the obvious reason. it was sort of a relief to wake up and realize it had only been a dream. i think all this wedding stuff happening indirectly in my life is getting into my head.
i can’t recall a time that i’ve dreamt about my own wedding. it’s always other people. i’m sure someone could have a field day of dream interpretation here.
a lot of my friends seem to be going through tumultuous times recently. not tumultuous in the grand scheme of things, but enough in our own lives to make us restless, and leave us wondering. tumultuous. that’s a good word. i like words. this morning i had occassion to use another word i like, aberration. hmm.
both jen and john have had some interesting thoughts lately. one: “i have a view of what i should care about. then there is what i actually care about.” two: “everyone you’re friends with or even slightly involved seems to kindof take a part of you with them. and you don’t really notice it till they’re gone and they’ve taken it with them. and i guess different people take different size pieces with them depending on how much they were in your life. how many pieces can you safely just give away? what if a small piece someone runs off with is enough to change you forever?”
becca is taking russian class for an hour every morning for the next month. a lovely hour alone in our office. how nice. 😉
gavin just came in and spent 5 minutes telling me about this old sprite commercial, the entire point basically being to ask me if i was having trouble finding my motivation, and that’s why i was reading cnn instead of arguing with sort. hmm. he’s probably right. but he’s obviously lacking in motivation as well since he wandered in just to tell me that. i think my entire group is suffering through a downturn at the moment. the majority of our work on both the sts-107 investigation and the x-38 program is over, and osp (orbital space plane) is only just starting to ramp up. we all have little projects to do, but nothing that feels pressing. we are all twiddling our thumbs a bit, and with our group lead about to go out of town for a month, this might last a while. i hope not.
my mom and brother leave today. ah well. it has been nice having them here for many reasons, not least of which is that i’ve realized i can do things on weeknights that are relaxing. i usually treasure my unplanned weeknights as if they are sacred; with volleyball and softball and other activities, weeknights have a tendency to turn so hectic, which only leaves me tired and cranky for work the next day. but thursday night i hung out with mom and david. sunday night we watched a lot of trading spaces and went to walmart. and last night, best of all, we went down to kemah, had dinner at joe’s, and just walked along the boardwalk. mom and i even rode the cheesy ferris wheel. it was very relaxing. here’s hoping that atlanta will be just as nice. a run, a play, and a baseball game…
