after three days of updates, i’m going to out of touch again, this time for 9 days. tomorrow morning at 7:30 i’ll be at the airport getting ready to board a plane to san antonio via houston. we’ll spend the night at a ranch outside san antonio, and on sunday we’ll drive down to reynosa, mexico. i’ll be in reynosa all week, return to san antonio next saturday, fly back here to charlotte next sunday. no internet access in reynosa = no diaryland updates. i’m sure you’ll all survive.
today got off to a great and late start…sleeping until 11:45. i feel much more rested today than i have in a while. i made myself pasta for lunch, had to make a return trip to walmart to exchange a few things, went running, and packed for the trip. mom made breakfast for dinner, one of my favorites. the evening became stressful, however, as i’ve just now finished packing for my trip. as such, i had to cancel my plans to have a drink with ginger and her friends tonight. geez, i always feel so angry about having to back out on plans i made in advance, especially if they involve friends. i don’t know the next time i’ll get to see ginger. grr. i feel so bad for having to cancel; i should have started packing much earlier. i didn’t think it would take so long. grr.
i’m pretty nervous about this trip, for two reasons. one, i don’t really know any of the other people going, and of the college group (with which i’ll be spending most of my time), i’m the oldest. two, it is a mission trip, and i haven’t attended church with any regularity since 8th grade.
we will be building houses in reynosa, so it’s not like we’re going down there to preach–we’re just going to help some people in need, which is one of the reasons i’m going at all. i was looking for something interesting and fun to do this summer, this trip has been something my sister and brother have enjoyed in the past, and it helps people–those three things make it worthwhile. but still, the fact that it’s a church trip combined with my lack of a church-going nature makes me nervous.
it’s not that i don’t believe in religion. it’s just that i have always felt it should be a private thing.
not that that has anything to do with this trip…it was just more of a side thought. it is hard for me to put my thoughts on religion together into a coherent idea, and the thoughts are mostly private anyway. so i never really talk about it.
anyway. here’s hoping it will be a great experience.